A lot of my friends say that they're "gay for" something (its usually Michael Buble). I've decided that I am "Straight for Jesus". That means that if someone said they could turn me straight and they thought I should, I would only do it it that person was Jesus. "Why is that?" you might ask, and its a good question.
I'm not sure if straight people can understand how much their life is shaped by their sexuality, and when I've told my friends that I would not choose to "be straight" or to "never have been gay" if I was given the option, and I don't think they understand why. Looking back through my life, I can see how much my sexuality has influenced how I interact with other people, the choices I have made, among other things. I know that the person I am today is heavily influenced by my sexuality, and the person I will become will be just as heavily influenced, if not more so. I don't think I would like the person I would be today had I always been straight. I would have never been so shy in high school, which influenced who my friends were, which made me the nerd I am today. I would have never been so scared of playing sports (locker rooms were terrifying for me), which would have taken away from my academics. So, one of the reasons I would not turn straight is because of the person I am today and the person I will become.
Another reason I would not "turn straight" is because of the plans I believe God has for my life. I don't subscribe to the idea that my parents made me gay, or that its some strange Freudian subconscious desire. Its pretty simple in my view. God made me this way, and he has a purpose for my life, and that my sexuality has something to do with that. I know that my current plans for life are based off of my sexuality. The reason I am currently looking to become a high school teacher and a school counselor is to help kids who are dealing with their sexual identity. Its something I wish I had when I was in high school. I believe this is a part of God's plan for my life, and I never would have arrived at this goal if I wasn't gay.
My life has been formed in a significant way by my sexuality, and I wouldn't trade my current life for anything, and I don't think God would ever ask me or want me to change. God's plan for my life is tied to my sexuality, and I am excited to see how it unfolds.
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